Wednesday, June 29

thirty two weeks pregnant




Time seems to finally be flying by.  I feel like I was just entering the 30's and now I find myself wondering where the time went.

I think we're ready.

I mean there are still some things that need to get done (like painting of the dresser for the nursery, the hanging of the artwork and mirror and the replacing of the blinds and curtains)... but these aren't showstoppers.  These seem like lose ends that will get done very shortly.  I should probably pack my hospital bag too but I am thinking that if it isn't packed, then I can't go into labor.  I kind of feel like if I pack it, I will be too ready if that makes any sense at all.

Have I mentioned that Andrew has been mia these past weeks?  Well he has been studying... all of the time when he hasn't been at work.  His exam is Monday.  I can't wait.  I want my Husband back.

As excited as I am for these babies to arrive, I am also clinging to the time that we have left together, just the two of us.  I read this lovely birth story earlier this week and suddenly found myself tearing up.

At this point physically I feel heavy, my feet and hands have started to swell (which I've fought against by drinking ridiculous amounts of water every day and by sleeping with an ice pack between my feet (I wish I was kidding)), moving around is getting harder but I am still being told that I am waddle free and show no evidence of the pregnant belly from behind (I am determined to remain waddle free, no matter how tempting it may become!).

Emotionally ... I am emotional.  I cry when I wake up and realize I have nothing planned for the day and will have to spend it laying on a couch or a mat, I cry when I make a ridiculous mistake that makes me feel like the bigger this belly gets, the smaller my brain gets, and I cry when I see our babies on the ultrasound screen, doing amazing things like practicing breathing and opening and closing their eyes.

Right now despite this roller coaster, or maybe because of it, I feel raw and ready, in awe of what my body has done and keeps on doing and oh so excited for the weeks to come.

14 comments:

  1. You look fantastic!!!!!!!! home stretch!

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  2. Wow, you look great!!!
    I hope that the swelling gets better.

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  3. Ashley...you look amazing!! Hang in there...almost there and we are all rooting for you!

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  4. You look amazing!!!!! It won't be long and you will get to meet and hold those precious little girls!

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  5. You look so incredible. I felt really bored at the end too when I was off of work. Soon you will be busy and in love with your babes. I was also so so emotional, and then really emotional the first couple weeks after Westley was born (and still emotional who am I kidding)Anyway, just wanted to let you know if you ever need to talk or vent or whatevs you can email me. Us Mama's gotta stick together. - candisljones@yahoo.com

    Also, thanks for reading and linking to Westley's birth story. :)

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  6. Thanks Ladies!!

    @Lady Lee - I will definitely take you up on that offer! Loved reading Westley's birth story!

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  7. beautiful photo! You look amazing. Enjoy your last few days a couple together (after the exam).

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  8. Ash, this post just touches my heart. Your transition into motherhood is beautiful to witness. You are more than ready, heart and soul, to nurture these two little creatures. I simply can't wait for it all to happen!

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  9. Wow 32 weeks! What a great milestone, and you are still smiling and looking great!

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  10. You look so great! Love the belly. My feet are mega swelling too. I try to combat with ice, but it doesn't help that much.

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  11. Thanks so much ladies!

    @lowfatlady - the ice feels good for a little bit but doesn't exactly shrink the swell! Hang in there!

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  12. happy 32 weeks! you're carrying so well! my babies are all up in my ribs!

    swelling? emotions? sounds like you're perfectly pregnant. :)

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