Papers, there were so many papers. I never print anything so when several hard copies are involved, it must be something very important. Signing the official in vitro with ICSI documents definitely qualifies.
Procedures were outlined, risks were communicated, questions were answered and instructions were heard. The hard facts.. we have a forty to fifty percent success rate if we transfer two embryos and a thirty to forty percent success rate if we transfer one, the likelihood for multiples if we decide to transfer two is thirty percent if we have a day three transfer and forty percent if we have a day five transfer, the chance of a canceled cycle is ten percent and my risk of ovarian hyperstimulation is fifteen percent.
The protocol.. agonist. The anxiety.. the birth control pill. My blood work showed that my testosterone is now fantastic but my estrogen is a tad high. The dreaded birth control pill is required to reign in my estrogen. I will deal with it.
The specifics.. i will start with the birth control pill, add in suprefact injections to suppress, move to puregon injections to stimulate, take a dose of HCG-PPC to mature and cap it off with endometrin for progesterone support post transfer.
It is time to start to make peace with the injections. My plan to remain blissfully ignorant in this department has expired.
Throwing down the visa instantly made everything real. This is happening and it is happening soon. I think it was this thought that perhaps threw my body into a mini panicked state because when it was time to get up to leave the clinic I could hardly stand up, I hid it well (well I think so anyways) but by the time we were in the stairwell it felt like something was seriously wrong.
Long story short.. I spent an hour and a half doubled over in a significant amount of pain and my poor Husband spent that hour and a half trying to figure out what to do with me. I think my body was just catching up to my mind and providing a little bit of resistance on the way there.
I feel good now and am back to riding out the mini "this is really happening" high that we solidified this morning.
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